Long time no write

Lots of things have happened and I can't seem to find where to start.

Hello strangers, I don't really know if there's someone out there reading, but it's ok. 

Remember those posts about my boyfriend? Yeah, that's not happening anymore, and I'm ok with it really. :) 

When something it's not meant to last forever you just have to let it go, so I did...He may not be perfect and he may have hurt me but it's alright, I wish him the very best.

Anyways! I'm in my second year of college now! WOW times flies huh? I've made more friends and I'm becoming a little bit more sociable, which is a wonderful thing. 

Everything at home seems to be getting better, although we are having a little money problem but we'll get by I'm sure. It's just that we're not used to not having my dad around and we wont be any time soon. 

I have a lot to say but so little time, so I'll try to write again later this day or tomorrow. :) 

Until next time, have a good one. 

Sh*t happens

It's been a pretty f*cking hard year, at least in my case it has; some uncles died, my dad died, and now someone who wasn't really my uncle but I did love him like one died last friday, no one thought I cared that much because no one really thought I cared for him as much or something, but I did and I really got sad, and I still am...I'm struggling with school, and can't wait for vacations, I know things will get better and that everything will go back to normal, or at least I'm hoping for it, I've got to keep a positive attitude right?
A friend once told me that being positive wasn't his thing and that he found it stupid and idiotic, and maybe it is, but maybe being positive doesn't mean really believing what you are saying, maybe just maybe it's means you've got no other option but being positive or else you will drown in sadness, and that's something I wont do.
I don't give up that easily, sure, I complain a lot, and cry sometimes, and shout, and I even say that I give up and that I wont do anything anymore, but I just SAY it, I always keep on walking forward, I have the right to scream, complain, get sad, and everything I want, and it doesn't mean I'll just sit down waiting for everything to either get better or get worst; I'm not that type of person, I'll fight until there's no more reason to fight.
Right now I can fully understand that nothing it's forever and that persons you hold dear can disappear just like that...in the blink of an eye...And it's sad, but that in a weird way makes me want to try harder, to do what I want to do when I can and not a day after, because tomorrow will be to late...
I regret so many things I didn't do before my dad died, but I wont anymore, because I know he and everyone else I lost this past 3 years are watching me from some place I can't see, I don't know if heaven because I kind of don't believe in that stuff, but some place hidden and at peace.
I may not make sense in this post but I don't care, I needed this so bad and I'm happy I wrote it.

Have a good one :) thank you for reading.

-diana

Hey there

Hi Hey Hey! Sorry for the long abscense ):! I've been busy lately and sooooooo tired that I just did't have it in me to write in the blog.
Not much in my life pretty much the same, ups and downs, my brother is gonna get married on april! That's kind of the only thing going on sooooo, bye strangers!

Valentine's day

I'll just say one thing and be over with this post...

I expected much more, really disappointed.

Sick, thinking out loud...yeah, fun :)

Well, it's been 6 months now since my dad passed away, I don't really know what I want to say about it though, I don't feel the need of saying anything really, just that I still miss him and always will.

I've been kind of sick lately (totally sucks!), I couldn't enjoy my four day weekend! And today at class I couldn't stop coughing, the teacher just kept on staring at me, waiting for me to cough and I couldn't hold it in, and when finally my cough seized, the sneezing made it's appearance! And all I said was ''BALLS!'' the teacher stared but I couldn't help it, it was one of those moments when you think to yourself but without noticing you say it out loud you know? It was funny because she didn't say anything just stared for a moment and then went on with the class, while I was laughing so hard in my mind. 

I was going to talk to you strangers more about thinking out loud but, maybe other time? 

Okay, now that you insist, I'll proceed then, stop begging now, please, STOP! (so sad that no one reads this and still I have to convince myself that there is someone out there reading, to you I say ''thank you'' ) 

Well let's see, the other time I remember doing that is when I was hanging with a crush of mine at high school and I was sitting on the floor and he was falling asleep with his head laid on my legs, and just the way he was he looked so so so cute and I said it, yes, I did ''How cute'' with that stupid girly voice I just couldn't help doing while speaking with him, all dreamy and ...stupid hahaha and I knew he didn't like me so as I said it I thought ''FUDGE!'' (no bad words here, not big ones anyway) and he just opened his eyes and stared and said ''what?'' and I replied ''what?'' , ''what you just said'' ''nothing, I said nothing'' and then it became really awkward for the rest of the day hahaha, I don't regret it though, it was fun and now we remember that day and find it kind of funny :) .

I don't think I have any more stories about thinking out loud, hmmm, no I think not, I can't remember one at the moment anyway. 

So....sayonara strangers, thanks for reading.

Remember Play-Doh? I bought some and
have been playing non stop with it.

Bad habits

I really should start continuing what I start...I mean, kind of all the things I start end up forgotten because of my lack of good memory, for instance right now I just remembered I have a half eaten milky way in the fridge, I have like a dozen drawings half colored or half drawn,I forgot to finish my homework so I guess I'll finish it up after this post, and last but not least I forgot to keep on writing this past days, ha ha ha sorry (even though I'm not sure if anyone is reading).
I'm getting more comfortable being the wheel now :) it's almost kind of fun already! WHOOPEE!
Anyway I should probably get back to folding my clothes hahaha forgot that too, seriously! I'm the worst case of laziness or bad memory ever...or both! Bye for now! Don't worry I wont forget you strangers again, I promise.

No picture today though, sorry

Enough!

No more crying, no more whining!
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Yesterday had to be the toughest day ever at school! I came home with a huge headache that I just died the moment my head touch my bed, lol.
Right now I'm getting ready for another day, but it won't be as bad today though, I hope.
I'm kind of happy, because I seemed to be getting better at socializing ha ha, it got easier for me to you know...Talk ha ha, I'm such an awkward person though, most of the time what I try to say doesn't get out right, lol; but my friends understand me so, that's good ha ha. The rest of the people that hear me saying something awkward tend to just look at me with a ''wtf?'' face, and I just laugh, heck, if I can't laugh about myself it isn't fun right?

Hope you have a great day strangers :)!